Almost five months! That's how long it's been since you've heard from me. Maybe you hadn't noticed, but I've thought about this blog every single day. I have been in a season of quietness on purpose. You see, I've been praying about the direction of this blog. Honestly, I'm still undecided on certain matters. I've been torn on many issues, one being whether to keep this site at all. I'm still praying. I'm still waiting for answers.
Let me explain. When I started this website, I had a vision for it, but since that time, God may be leading me in another direction. I am trying to be sensitive to that. To undertake this blog, is a huge responsibility. It requires an investment of time and technical knowledge. I believe that whatever I set my hands to, I should do it with excellence, as serving the Lord. I don't always feel equipped to give you that excellence however. There are so many insecurities that I have. There are so many excuses (or as I prefer - reasons) why I should not be here blogging. Writing is not even one of my strong points! There are so many other talented, eager writers out there blogging and doing a fabulous job. Why me? I'm still praying. I'm still waiting for answers.
If you only knew the number of times I have given up this blog, you would think I am crazy. You'd be right too! By the time of my last post in June, I had given up blogging at least once every day this year. I kept coming back though. Finally, I decided that I needed to just step back and pray and really take the time to press into God. All the while, I have found myself standing in the shower on any given day, developing a blog post in my head. I have laid in bed and had thoughts come to mind that are larger than me that need to be shared. I have opened my Bible and recorded many outlines as I have read God's Word and listened to Him speak. I have stood in front of the mirror and taught that woman there many lessons just to get them out of my mouth (Wow, so I just admitted to talking to myself in the mirror - Yikes!). Are all these things to be kept to myself? I’m still praying. I’m still waiting for answers.
I've recently grasped, through the help of my pastor’s preaching and church Bible study, that I have the gift of teaching. I don't really know why this is new to me. I think a part of me has always known that this is how God gifted me. I've always found myself in teaching roles such as giving piano lessons and now homeschooling my children, but I also believe that God is equipping me to serve other women through teaching. I just don't know in what capacity or venue yet. I'm still praying. I'm still waiting for answers.
So, this is me. It's where I'm at mentally. Who knows? The next time you hear from me, this site may be revved up a bit and giving a new shine with God's glory, or He may show me there's a new direction He has for me. In the meantime, I might be a little quiet, but at least you will know why. I am still praying, and I am still waiting during the quiet season.
I was looking over my website information tonight, and I pulled up this blog post that I wrote in October 2016. You never saw it because I never posted it. That was not entirely an accident. You'll understand more once you read this (at least I hope you do if I actually make any sense). It's obvious to me that God is calling me to something, and I am trying my best to be obedient. I'll admit that I'm very scared and excited all at the same time. I'm not ready to share what God is doing yet, but I'm sure I will in time. Looking back, it's kind of interesting that the last post here on the blog was "When the LORD Has Called You." God definitely works in mysterious ways. So here's the actual post from October 2016:
That post is still very relevant to the present, but I am further down the road in realizing God's calling. For now, stay tuned. Let's see what God is going to do!
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